Our self-judgement is based upon our perception of our self. This self-perception was created when we believed what others told us about our self. Once the child believes that the projections that others use to define the child are true it has a powerful effect upon that child, sometimes for the rest of its life. If those who care for a child paint a picture of a weak, stupid, naughty, cheeky, unlovable little boy or girl that nobody will like this is a sin committed against that child. The effects of this sin are the ‘beliefs’ the child creates to support this testimony and condemnation.
From the acceptance of the judgement of others is born the belief in the mind of the child that it is what others define it to be. If a child believes that the negative projections of others are true then the child may take this to mean that it is not as good or as worthy as others. Once the child takes the judgement of others as its own truth the child condemns itself. The ego is the identity. The ego is self-perception. The ego is created by the child to serve the child’s judgement. The ego will fight against or reject any judgement that seeks to ‘increase’ or ‘diminish’ self-perception.
The thoughts and feelings respond to the ego’s judgement. Ego judgement is sustained by the personal ‘beliefs’ of the innocent child. If the child thinks it is not good enough, or it cannot do what it believes it cannot do, it cannot accept ‘compliments’ or comments to the contrary without feeling uncomfortable. In these moments the child may be perceived to be shy, humble, awkward or embarrassed. Embarrassment is the child’s awareness that it is not perceived according to its own judgement. The child believes it does not deserve what it believes it does not deserve.
In contrast to this if the child believes it can and its beliefs are challenged by others it may vocally, aggressively or even violently or criminally resist this judgement. ‘Oh yes I can, oh no you can’t’ is the context of the argument of a child with those who ‘initially’ challenge a child’s ego. Until a child shares the opinion of others it may resist any challenge to their perceived self. Once a child believes it can’t do what it would like to do its aspirations may create a lifelong battle with what it thinks it ‘knows’ about itself. We can only believe what we do not know.
This battle is experienced as ‘unhappy feelings’ and ‘personal difficulty’. If a child thinks it knows it is not ‘as good’ as others and cannot do what others do then it will play this part completely. The thoughts and feelings of the child will worship this judgement completely. The child may fight against others who remind the child of its own self judgement. The child may experience a life-long struggle with fear of what lies beyond the walls of their own self-imposed incarceration. The child may fight against anyone or thing that reflects their own self judgement and condemnation.
The ego plays all parts. ‘I’ fights ‘me’ to save ‘me’ from experiencing what I fear which destroys ‘me’ in the process. The ego is an illusion of ‘I’. The child creates conflicting beliefs to counteract its own judgment. Over the lifetime the thoughts, feelings and health become a victim of beliefs that lack wisdom. Wisdom is always counselled by compassion. Our self-incarceration within a perspective that suffers is created in the moment we believed what we thought about our self which would have originally been based upon what others told us about our self.
Our self-perception is originally based upon the judgement of our parents. When we take this judgement as personal belief we use this criterion to judge ourselves over and over again. As a small child we may initially fight against this ‘condemnation’. We cannot resist words and judgement that we do not understand. It is the realisation of the meaning of repeated words that gives power to those words within our own mind. The criticism of others is just them fighting for their own judgement that responds to their feelings. Our parent feelings are responding to their perception of us.
The ego is the perspective of the identity that takes our place. We create the ego so we can conform to the expectations of others. The ego is our creation and it has fought for us according to our judgement in the form of our beliefs. The ego is a perspective that is incarcerated by the constraints of the beliefs that we chose to worship as truth. To consistently be as we are now we had to create many ‘rules’ and ‘parameters’ in the form of personal beliefs. These beliefs are experienced as fearful thoughts and feelings existing in the context of ‘I can’t’ unless I believe I can.
In truth we are beyond the concept of intelligent and there is nothing we cannot do. Until we realise that we are not the beliefs that define us we will remain incarcerated within a limited perspective that is sustained by our beliefs. To know and to understand the words that are written here is not realising. Realisation is not gradual or slow it is immediate and absolute. We must do the work if our ‘feelings’ are to be released from spiritual incarceration. Our whole mind and our ego perspective are now working together to create the communion that is ‘our salvation’.
As an individual only you can save the truth of the innocent child that reads these words from your false self. It is us that must save us from the false and limited ‘I’ that is incarcerating the whole of us within its judgement. Our false and limited self must surrender to the whole mind that is the ego’s creator and God. This is essential if we are to realise our self, whole as we were created. We are the God that we surrender to so ‘there is nothing to fear’. We had to forget who we were before we could believe we were what we were not.
Our beliefs are in conflict and, because we realised we cannot be the good guy and the bad guy, we created context. We first said I love everybody. Then we said if someone hurts just one member of my family I will do this or that. This was to be tricked because this judgement programmed our mind to find reasons that justified thinking and acting without compassion. Without wisdom, which is to be guided by compassion, this self-programming created contradictions that were experienced as conflict. We are not weak, stupid, naughty, bad, wicked, cruel or unlovable.
In truth we are not the opposite of all of those judgements. We are beyond them. Those projections said more about the perception of the one who projected them than they did about us. So what are we? We are the feelings that we feel when there is no judgement in our mind about the experience we are experiencing. We have created software in the form of beliefs that control what we think and feel. We feel our judgement when exposed to any stimulus that we judged. Our beliefs enforce our self-judgement.
If we do not remove our faith in our beliefs they will impose a life sentence upon us controlling what we think and feel for the rest of our life. The mechanism for this complex is to control what ‘we think’ and what ‘we feel’. This is why it was said, ‘Judge that you be not judged’. If we believe what others tell us about our self then we have condemned our self to a life of slavery to that judgement. We each have ‘ultimate’ power over what we think and feel. Without beliefs that judge us or our experiences ‘we are the truth of our experience’.
Without judgement the experience can still feel ‘good’ or ‘bad’. Our omnipotence gives us the power not only to judge our self or our experiences but the power to control what we think and feel. We have judged without wisdom and our judgement has led to a life of limitation. What good is it to know this without realising it? Without realisation the words written here are just knowledge or opinion. Knowledge is just words to be repeated to demonstrate that we are educated. Without the realisation of truth we do not know, we are just prejudiced by our ‘chosen’ beliefs.
We must believe what we have read for it to become ‘truth’ in our mind. When a belief is accepted as ‘truth’ the believer is continually usurped by the belief that he or she has chosen to worship. So if we believe that we are ‘not as good as others’ or we ‘can’t do things’ then this is what we think and feel when we are around ‘others’ or when we attempt to ‘do things’. Our feelings are continually responding to stimulus associated with our beliefs. Our beliefs exist to trigger the emotional responses we make as sacrifices given in worship of our belief’s judgement.
If we believe there is a problem we have judged what is to be less than what it should be and created a ‘problem’ in our mind. Once we create the belief in problem within our mind our thoughts and feelings respond to that judgement when we are exposed to what we have judged to be a ‘problem’. We are the most successful person in our existence. We are an amazing success and have never failed. We used our creative power to limit our self to serve our own judgement. We have ‘never failed’ in this. When we realise how powerful we are there may be a few tears and a lot of laughter.
We are not the victims of our experiences we are the creators of them. Our participation in what we have created is a miracle. The only power an experience has over us is the power we give it. If we lose our beliefs what exists in truth will still exist. We lose nothing by realising the truth. The feeling is the truth. We are the feeling. We are the truth. Our beliefs trespass against us. Forgive them because we created them when we put our faith in them. We can only believe what we do not know because when we know we have no need of beliefs, because ‘we know’.
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